Winston rules and his own image of reality, Winston

Winston Smith is portrayed as an “innocent boy” in a world gone wrong.In George Orwell 1984;Orwell is trying to show that Winston Smith goes through a major changes in his character. Winston ultimately leads himself to his own downfall.At the beginning of the novel we are introduced to Winston’s cold-hearted reality. Winston feels like a dead man walking. He tries to recall his nightmares just so he can feel some kind of  real emotion. He write in a diary, his only coping method and it feels good to rebel against The Party.Winston’s trapped between the Party’s redundant rules and his own image of reality, Winston experiences a crisis that ultimately leads to his downfall.Winston’s thinking to himself.”He felt as though he were wandering in the forests of the sea bottom, lost in a monstrous world where he himself was the monster. He was alone. The past was dead, the future was unimaginable. What certainty had he that a single human creature now living was on his side? And what way of knowing that the dominion of the Party would not endure forever? (1.2.34)”Winston spends most of his time writing down the things he learns about the past, the REAL past, and reflecting on his rebellious habits in a secret journal he keeps; that escapes the surveillance of the telescreen. Winston lived a restricted life in which everything was focused on the good of the PartyWhen Winston first seen Julia “he hated the sight of her and that he wanted to rape her and smash her head in with a cobblestone.” After Winston and Julia get to know the real version of themselves, they instantly fall in love with each other. After Winston meets Julia he feels like a conscious human being. He can’t believe what he’s feeling is actually real. Although he knows it’s a matter of time before they get caught he can’t help himself because to Winston the consequences seem worth it.Suddenly he started up with a shock of horror. The sweat broke out on his backbone. He had heard himself cry aloud:”Julia ! Julia! Julia, my love! Julia!” (3.4.20-21)In a quick second of rebellion and an explanation of confidential loyalty, Winston refuses to give up Julia.Winston’s last act of rebellion is not to give Julia up; he refuses to betray her. In a quick second of rebellion and an explanation of confidential loyalty, Winston refuses to give up Julia. Faced with his biggest fear, Winston finally betrays Julia.Winston’s last transformation happens after being tortured and re-educated by O’Brien. At the end of being tortured, Winston is a closed-off version of himself. Winston is no longer himself, in that moment finally realizes that he loves Big Brother.Nevertheless Winston’s words seem sorrowfully heartfelt,”He gazed up at the enormous face. Forty years it had taken him to learn what kind of smile was hidden beneath the dark moustache. O cruel, needless misunderstanding! O stubborn, self-willed exile from the loving breast! Two gin-scented tears trickled down the sides of his nose. But it was all right, everything was alright, the struggle was finished. He had won the victory over himself. He loved Big Brother”(Bradbury).”Orwell consistently says that physical pain and the sense of physical danger can override human reason. Winston, facing a writhing swarm of rats prepared to devour his face, cannot act rationally. That his betrayal of Julia occurs so soon after he restates his love for her is precisely the point, as physical pain eliminates the possibility of defending emotional conviction. As Winston notes earlier in the novel, he is a prisoner of his own nervous system. Turning against Julia is an instinctive lunge for self-preservation. Rather than the rats themselves, it is the awareness, foisted upon him by the Party, that he is a prisoner of his own body that ultimately breaks Winston. Once he believes that he is limited by his body, he has no reason to think, act, or rebel” (Sparknotes:1984).”We can say that Winston has lost an essential part of his own humanity, his soul, by the end of the novel when, after a lifetime of secret rebellion, he succumbs completely to the mind control exerted by the Party. Brutalised and tortured, subjected to the most relentless interrogation, he loses his own individuality, the sense of his own self, his own needs, desires and hopes”(Homework Help GPANE).Winston Smith goes through a major change in character. In the beginning, Winston is depicted as a fictional character who is intellectual, someone who doesn’t agree with the laws yet he respects them, he has ambition to change society but with the government controlling all aspects of their lives that’s hard. The next major change is his love affair with Julia. Even though Winston know how much trouble they can get in for this he does it anyway. Finally, Winston’s character takes a melodramatic change.Winston is captured by O’Brien, a man he thought he could trust. If we aren’t careful about how we change, then we can possibly set up own own downfall.